Jack picks up on everything. Today we were driving and Jack asked me if "Those idiots" wouldn't get out of my way. The idiots were the other cars on the road. I guess I should watch my use of the "I" word. I also tell people to get out of my way while I'm driving. So a couple of weeks ago Jack yelled at some guy in Target to get out of our way. Fortunately he didn't hear him or he didn't realize Jack was talking to him.
The babies are doing well. I'm still struggling with the nursing. I'm just not ready to give up. My DH thinks we should just bottle feed. I have to say I wish he was a little more supportive. Not that he's not supportive. He is. He doesn't like to see me get frustrated and thinks I'd be happier if I could just let go of the breastfeeding thing. I just can't help feeling like a failure for not being able to do this. I feel like if I don't succeed then that means I just didn't try hard enough. I have to say it's a big pain in the butt though. I am not coordinated enough to breastfeed anywhere but here at home. Only Megan will breastfeed, Erica refuses. And I'm trying to pump in between so that I can build up my supply and that takes up 15-60 minutes everytime. And I still have to find time for Jack in between all that. I need some help so it's time for an appointment at the lactation clinic. I've been putting that off but I really need some answers to my questions about all this. Like they tell you if your baby has X number of wet diapers a day then they're getting enough but her diapers are barely wet compared to when she gets formula. And how come she will take a full feeding by bottle after an hour at the breast? I dread taking all the kids (well actually, just Jack) to an appointment where I have to try and breastfeed. I'll never be able to relax, it's hard enough at home. Anyway, I better go. Erica is getting hungry.
3 comments:
You are not a failure if you don't successfully breastfeed but it's not unusual to feel that way. What's most important is the girls getting the nutrition they need AND having a mom that is healthy, happy, and rested (as much as you can be). And there's nothing wrong with bf'ing one and bottle feeding the other if one won't nurse. You have tons of options. Hang in there and make the decision that is right for YOUR family needs and dynamics.
Agree with Jae. Whatever it is..just remember you need to feel happy with your decision. Hugs to you!
Thanks you guys. Actually Erica did really well nursing today. Maybe there's hope yet!
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